This morning I woke up, groggy again, but quickly started into the morning mode. Got the kids fed and lunches made and out the door. I was a bit overwhelmed by the list of things to do. Not having a car added to the frustration. So I decided to sit and write down every thing that needed to be done and organized my self with how I could do it all as eficiently as possible.
So after my husband went out the door I was ready to tackle my list. One thin I left off however was Yoga. I decided to get my mat out and work on my poses. At the end I took some time for Hisbodadus (Jewish meditation). During the meditation I was trying to focus on Malchus (Kingship). Now we have only a few days before Rosh Hashana, this is yes the Jewish New Year, simply put. But what it is really is Am Yisrael aknowledging that Hashem is our King. We must remember and cherish that every second of every day depends on Hashem's kindness and mercy to sustain it. Every wind that blows and cloud that forms and ray of sunshine, every breath is willed by Hashem. I breath, I breath in the life force, that sustinance that Hashem is giving me every day. "Modeh Ani L'Fanecha Melech Chai V'Kayam, Shehechezarta, Be- Nishmasi, Bchemla Raba Emunasecha". I greatfully thank You, O living and Eternal King, for You have returned my soul within me with compassion, abundant is your faithfulness!
Please guide me Hashem through this day, and help me to keep my serenity and calm even though I am overwhelmed. I must release control and understand that YOU run the world, and not to try and bear that burden.